Mood= V.BAD.. worst month of my life.. 09'

month of jun n july of 2009.. why must u be such a bad month for me.. =.=..

bad things happened 2 me during this month..

1)stop tskua.. cant see my frens nymore.. need go 2 a another paria tuition..
2)got rejected officialy..
3)cut my leg..
4)cut my hand..
5)ponteng class n found out by teacher..
6)got lectured from my mother in tha car on OD.. *Open Day*
7)Got geografi folio 2 do..
8)Got Sejarah folio 2 do..
9)Fuck up-ed connection..
10)Play game less then 30 sec dc..
11)Freaking bad mood on friday.. *03/07/2009* (dont know why.. just in a bad mood)
12)Friends dint come on friday n was fcking bored... =.=
13)Computer sumthing wrong.. Keep Hang..
14) Computer can suddenly off by itself... *fuck up-ed*..
15)Sis bought new camera.. RM1875...N all i spend when i was in sunway is RM2.. *Fuck up-ed*
16)Want a freaking new phone but cant get it.. *fuck up-ed*..
17)Forced 2 fcking sleep early everyday now but i dont fcking care..
18)"SHE" phone was taken by her mother.. =.=.. *fuck up-ed*
19) cant msg her since wednesday till now.. *fuck up-ed*
20)"SHE" dint come school on friday.. couldn't chat with her.. *fuck up-ed*
21)Nvr DOTA for a long time with my clan.. =.=
22)Was posting this post earlier suddenly fcking comp hang.. *fuck up-ed*

i dont know wat 2 write anymore... =.=...2 many 2 name it all.. =.=..
entered my freaking game started scolding ppl for no fucking reason.. =.=
haven received any msg since Friday.. =.= *fuck-uped*
wats wrong with tha world... =.=
i just feel like..
Dying...
can sum1 help me?
i wish 2 die n go 2 heaven...
i dont deserve 2 live anymore..
i dont deserve 2 get a life anymore in this fuck up-ed world... -.-
hope 2moro will be a better day..
will it be a better day?
can it be a better day?
in wat way will it be a better day?

i dont really fcking know..
mayb by "SHE" msging me..

fuck up-ed mosquito biting me ..
GOD.. help me...
help me be a better servant 2 u LORD..
ur my 1 n only saviour..
no 1 else..
SO.. pls help me..

whoever thinks they can cure me.. pls try 2 do so..

i know sum1 who i am positively sure can cure me..
my frens.. R2D/DZ..
"SHE"..

ill be waiting for ur msges..
pls try 2 cure me up if u can..

thx..

im sorry if i reply vulgar words..

if i do so.. just try 2 calm me down..

frens out there..

pls organize something fun...

like JJ or futsal..

pls.. i really need sumthing 2 cool of my mind...

have been sitting at home most of tha time doing ntg but sitting like a fuck up-ed..

pls.. organize sumthing...

anything.. just as long sumthing..

"SHE".. reply me as fast as u get back ur phone..

i know tat "SHE" doesn't even know my blog add..

has never seen my blog..

but..

miracles could happen.. "SHE" could msg me sumhow sooner or ltr..

pls.. "SHE".. waiting for u..

will be waiting for u till tha world ends..

waiting *impatiently*..

sumthing impossible..

but sumthing can only been done by Hзå؆lзśЅ™